January was a ROUGH month for me. Lots of crying for WEEKS. My first cat i ever got of only 6 years old, died..suddenly. It was so sudden, and i know it was just a cat, but it just hurt so much to see him in all that pain. Have you ever seen a cat frown? It's THE saddest thing i think i've ever seen in my life . On top of that, i was told that my boyfriend was talking about breaking up with me. /: I mean, i was glad i found out..but i just hated hearing news like that, and i was even more upset at the fact that he never told me what was going on or how he felt..and he COMPLETELY trusts me. ...Well at least he did. i don't even know if he still does now. So, i did a lot of crying for days and he broke up with me the day BEFORE our one month. On our one month was a school dance we were supposed to go to. He promised me we would go together and that he'd take me out to dinner, and all this sweet stuff..but then i say one thing to him, and BOOM i'm not his girlfriend anymore. Even my own family was having a rough time..not just me. It seems bad luck just struck on top of our house or something. I was a wreck. Complete W R E C K . Everything was just falling apart. In the middle or close to the end of February is when things got kinda better. I mean, my grades were still shit, but i just knew that i could pick myself back up. Before, i felt useless. Like no one was there for me. School just sucked. Days i just wanted to crawl up in a ball and cry till i fell asleep. But, i couldn't. I couldn't let ANYONE know i was getting weak. You know, some things just kept piling and piling on, that i just wanted to leave and run away from it all. Til recently, God gave me courage, and picked me back up. I now feel more loved than i've ever felt before, i'm doing better in school, i haven't cried in 3 weeks, and my ex is just doing him, and im doing better (; I found myself again. Finally. ♥

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